though they had got up early to meet some one who had not arrived. Damon sped through them like a sea-gull that has the harbour to itself, and was not long in reaching the theatre. How desolate the play-bills looked that had been so companionable but three or four hours before! And there was her photograph! Surely it was an omen.
“Ah, my angel! See, I am bringing you my heart in a song. ‘All my heart in this my singing!'”
He dropped the letter into the box; but, as he turned away, momentarily glancing up the long street, he caught sight of an approaching figure that could hardly be mistaken. Good Heavens! it was Pythias, and he too was carrying a letter.
CHAPTER XIV
CONTRIBUTIONS TOWARDS A GENEALOGY
The egregious Miss Bashkirtseff did not greatly fascinate Esther. Her egotism was too hard, too self-bounded, even for egotism, and there was generally about her a lack of sympathy. Her passion for fame had something provincial in its eagerness, and her broadest ideals seemed to become limited by her very anxiety to compass them. Even her love of art seemed a form of snobbery. In all these young Mesuriers there was implicit,–partly as a bye-product of the sense of humour, and partly as an unconscious mysticism,–a surprising instinct for allowing the successes of this world their proper value and no more. Even Esther, who was perhaps the most worldly of them all, and whose ambitions were largely social, as became a bonny girl whom nature had marked out to be popular, and on whom, some day when Mike was a great actor,–and had a theatre of his own!–would devolve the cares of populous “at home” days, bright after-the-performance suppers, and all the various diplomacies of the popular wife of fame,–even Esther, however brilliant her life might become, would never for a moment imagine that such success was a thing worth winning, at the expense of the smallest loss to such human realities as the affection she felt for Mike and Henry. To love some one well and faithfully, to be one of a little circle vowed to eternal fidelity one to the other,–such was the initial success of these young lives; and it was to make them all their days safe from the dangers of more meretricious successes.
All the same, though the chief performer in Marie Bashkirtseff’s “Confessions” interested her but little, the stage on which for a little while she had scolded and whimpered did interest her–for should it not have been her stage too, and Henry’s stage, and Dot’s stage, father’s and mother’s stage too? You had only to look at father to realise that nature had really meant him for the great stage; here in Sidon, what was he but a god in exile, bending great powers and a splendid character upon ridiculously unimportant interests? Indeed, was not his destiny, more or less, their destiny as a family? Henry would escape from it through literature, and she through Mike. But what of Dot, what of Mat, not yet to speak of “the children”?
All she envied Marie Bashkirtseff was her opportunity. Great Goddess Opportunity! So much had come to Marie in the cradle, and came daily to a hundred thousand insignificant aristocratic babes, to approach which for the Mesuriers, even ten years too late, meant convulsions of the home, and to attain which in any satisfactory degree was probably impossible. French, for example, and music! Why, if so disposed, Marie Bashkirtseff might have read old French romances at ten, and to play Chopin at an earlier age was not surprising in the opportunitied, so-called “aristocratic” infant. Oh, why had they not been born like the other Sidonians, whose natures and ideals had been mercifully calculated to the meridian of Sidon! Why didn’t they think the Proudfoots and the Wilkinsons and the Wagstaffs, and other local nobody-somebodies, people of importance, and why did they think the mayor a ludicrous upstart, and the adjacent J.P. a sententious old idiot? Far better to have rested content in that state of life to which God had called them. To talk French, or to play Chopin! What did it matter? In one sense nothing, but in another it mattered like other convenient facilities of life. To the immortal soul it mattered nothing, but to the mortal social unit it made life the easier, made the passage of ideas, the intercourse of individualities, the readier, and, in general, facilitated spiritual and intellectual, as well as social, communication. To be first-rate in your instincts, in all your fibres, and third-rate in your opportunities,–that was a bitter indignity of circumstance.
This sub-conscious sense of aristocracy–it must be observed, lest it should have been insufficiently implied–was almost humorously dissociated in the minds of the young Mesuriers from any recorded family distinctions. In so far as it was conscious, it was defiantly independent of genealogy. Had the Mesuriers possessed a coat-of-arms, James Mesurier would probably have kept it locked up as a frivolity to be ashamed of, for it was a part of his Puritanism that such earthly distinctions were foolishness with God; but, as a matter of fact, between Adam and the immediate great-grandparents of the young Mesuriers, there was a void which the Herald’s office would have found a difficulty in filling. This it never occurred to them to mind in the least.
It was one of Henry’s deep-sunken maxims that “a distinguished product implied a distinguished process,” and that, at all events, the genealogical process was only illustratively important. It would have been interesting to know how they, the Mesuriers, came to be what they were. In the dark night of their history a family portrait or two, or an occasional reference in history, would have been an entertaining illumination–but, such not being forthcoming, they were, documentally, so much the less indebted to their progenitors. Yet if they had only been able to claim some ancestor with a wig and a degree for the humanities, or some beautiful ancestress with a romantic reputation! One’s own present is so much more interesting for developing, or even repeating, some one else’s past. And yet how much better it was to be as they were, than as most scions of aristocratic lineage, whose present was so often nothing and their past everything. How humiliating to be so pathetically inadequate an outcome of such long and elaborate preparation,–the mouse of a genealogical mountain! Yes, it was immeasurably more satisfactory to one’s self-respect to be Something out of Nothing, than Nothing out of Everything. Here so little had made so much; here so much had made–hardly even a lord. It was better for your circumstances to be inadequate for you, than you to be inadequate for your circumstances.
Henry had amused himself one day in making a list of all their “ancestors” to whom any sort of worldly or romantic distinction could attach, and it ran somewhat as follows:–
(1) A great-grandmother on the father’s side, fabled to live in some sort of a farm-house chateau in Guernsey, who once a year, up till two years ago, when she died, had sent them a hamper of apples from Channel Island orchards. Said “chateau” believed by his children to descend to James Mesurier, but the latter indifferent to the matter, and relatives on the spot probably able to look after it.
(2) A great-grandfather on the mother’s side given to travel, a “rolling-stone,” fond of books and talk, and rich in humanity. Surviving still in a high-nosed old silhouette.
(3) A grand-uncle on the father’s side who was one of Napoleon’s guard at St. Helena!
(4) A grandfather on the mother’s side, who used to design and engrave little wooden blocks for patterns on calico-stuffs, and whose little box of delicate instruments, evidently made for the tracing of lines and flowers, was one of the few family heirlooms.
(5) A grandmother on the father’s side of whom nothing was known beyond the beautiful fact that she was Irish.
(6) A grandfather on the father’s side who was a sea-captain, sailing his own ship (barque “the Lucretia”) to the West Indies, and who died of yellow fever, and was buried, in the odour of romance, on the Isthmus of Panama.
(7) An uncle who had also been a sea-captain, and who, in rescuing a wrecked crew from an Australian reef, was himself capsized, and after a long swim finally eaten by a shark,–said shark being captured next day, and found to contain his head entire, two gold rings still in his ears, which he wore for near-sightedness, after the manner of common sailors, and one of which, after its strange vicissitudes, had found a resting-place in the secretaire of his brother, James Mesurier.
Such was the only accessible “ancestry” of the Mesuriers, and it is to be feared that the last state of the family was socially worse than the first. James Mesurier was unapproachably its present summit, its Alpine peak; and he was made to suffer for it no little by humble and impecunious relatives. Still, whatever else they lacked, Henry Mesurier loved to insist that these various connections were rich in character, one or two of them inexhaustible in humour; and their rare and somewhat timorous visits to the castle of their exalted relative, James Mesurier, were occasions of much mirthful embarrassment to the young people. Here the reader is requested to excuse a brief parenthetical chapter by way of illustration, which, if he pleases, he may skip without any loss of continuity in the narrative, or the least offence in the world to the writer. This present chapter will be found continued in chapter sixteen.
CHAPTER XV
MERELY A HUMBLE INTERRUPTION AND
ILLUSTRATION OF THE LAST
Some peaceable afternoon when Mrs. Mesurier was enjoying a little doze on the parlour sofa, and her three elder daughters were snatching an hour or two from housework–they had already left school–for a little private reading, the drowsy house would suddenly be awakened by one loud wooden knock at the door.
“Now, whoever can that be!” the three girls would impatiently exclaim; and presently the maid would come to Miss Esther to say that there was an old man at the door asking for Mrs. Mesurier.
“What’s his name, Jane?”
“He wouldn’t give it, miss. He said it would be all right. Mrs. Mesurier would know him well enough.”
“Whoever can it be? What’s he like, Jane?”
“He looks like a workman, miss,–very old, and rather dotey.”
“Who can it be? Go and ask him his name again.”
Esther would then arouse her mother; and the maid would come in to say that at last the old man had been persuaded to confide his name as Clegg–Samuel Clegg.
“Tell the missus it’s Samuel Clegg,” the old man had said, with a certain amusing conceit. “She’ll be glad enough to see Samuel Clegg.”
“Why!” said Mrs. Mesurier, “it’s your father’s poor old uncle, Mr. Clegg. Now, girls, you mustn’t run away, but try and be nice to him. He’s a simple, good, old man.”
Mrs. Mesurier was no more interested in Mr. Clegg than her daughters; but she had a great fund of humanity, and an inexhaustible capacity for suffering bores brilliantly.
“Why, I never!” she would say, adapting her idiom to make the old man feel at home, as he was presently ushered in, chuntering and triumphant; “you don’t mean to say it’s Uncle Clegg. Well, we are glad to see you! I was just having a little nap, and so you must excuse my keeping you waiting.”
“Ay, Mary. It’s right nice of you to make me so welcome. I got a bit misdoubtful at the door, for the young maid seemed somehow a little frightened of me; but when I told the name it was all right. ‘Samuel Clegg,’ I said. ‘She’ll be glad enough to see Samuel Clegg,’ I said.”
“Glad indeed,” murmured Mrs. Mesurier, “I should think so. Find a chair for your uncle, Esther.”
“Ay, the name did it,” chuckled the old man, who as a matter of fact was anything but a humble old person, and to whom the bare fact of existence, and the name of Clegg, seemed warrant enough for thinking quite a lot of yourself.
“I’m afraid you don’t remember your old uncle,” said the old man to Esther, looking dimly round, and rather bewildered by the fine young ladies. Actually, he was only a remote courtesy uncle, having married their father’s mother’s sister.
“Oh, of course, Uncle Clegg,” said Esther, a true daughter of her mother; “but, you see, it’s a long time since we saw you.”
“And this is Dorcas. Come and kiss your uncle, Dorcas. And this is Matilda,” said Mrs. Mesurier.
“Ay,” said the old man, “and you’re all growing up such fine young ladies. Deary me, Mary, but they must make you feel old.”
“We were just going to have some tea,” said Esther; “wouldn’t you like a cup, uncle?”
“I daresay your uncle would rather have a glass of beer,” said Mrs. Mesurier.
“Ay, you’re right there, Mary,” answered the old man, “right there. A glass of beer is good enough for Samuel Clegg. A glass of beer and some bread and cheese, as the old saying is, is good enough for a king; but bread and cheese and water isn’t fit for a beggar.”
All laughed obligingly; and the old man turned to a bulging pocket which had evidently been on his mind from his entrance.
“I’ve got a little present here from Esther,” he said,–“Esther” being the aunt after whom Mike’s Esther had been named,–bringing out a little newspaper parcel. “But I must tell you from the beginning.
“Well, you know, Mary,” he continued, “I was feeling rather low yesterday, and Esther said to me, ‘Why not take a day off to-morrow, Samuel, and see Mary, it’ll shake you up a bit, and I’ll be bound she’s right glad to see you?’ ‘Why, lass!’ I said, ‘it’s the very thing. See if I don’t go in the morning.’
“So this morning,” he continued, “she tidies me up–you know her way–and sends me off. But before I started, she said, ‘Here, Samuel, you must take this, with my love, to Mary.’ I’ve kept it wrapped up in this drawer for thirty years, and only the other day our Mary Elizabeth said, ‘Mother, you might give me that old jug. It would look nice in our little parlour.'” “But no!” I says, “Mary Elizabeth, if any one’s to have that jug, it’s your Aunt Mary.”
“How kind of her!” murmured Mrs. Mesurier, sympathetically.
“Yes, those were her words, Mary,” said the old man, unfolding the newspaper parcel, and revealing an ugly little jug of metallically glistening earthenware, such as were turned out with strange pride from certain English potteries about seventy years ago. It seemed made in imitation of metal,–a sort of earthenware pewter; and evidently it had been a great aesthetic treasure in the eyes of Mrs. Clegg. Mrs. Mesurier received it accordingly.
“How pretty,” she said, “and how kind of Aunt Esther! They don’t make such things nowadays.”
“No, it’s a vallyble relic,” said the old man; “but you’re worthy of it, Mary. I’d rather see you have it than any of them. My word, but I’m glad I’ve got it here safely. Esther would never have forgiven me.’ Now, Samuel,’ she said, as I left, ‘mind you get home before dark, and don’t sit on the jug, whatever you do.'”
Meanwhile the “young ladies” were in imminent danger of convulsions; and, at that moment, further to enhance the situation, an old lady of the neighbourhood, who occasionally dropped in for a gossip, was announced. She was a prim little lady, with “Cranford” curls, and a certain old-world charm and old-world vanity about her, and very deaf. She too was a “character” in her way, but so different from old Mr. Clegg that the entertainment to be expected from their conjunction was irresistible even to anticipate.
“This is Mr. Clegg, an uncle of Mr. Mesurier,” said poor Mrs. Mesurier, by way of introduction.
“Howd’ye do, marm?” said Mr. Clegg, without rising.
Mrs. Turtle bowed primly. “Are you sure, my dear, I don’t interrupt?” she said to Mrs. Mesurier; “shall I not call in some other day?”
“Oh, dear, no!” said Mrs. Mesurier. “Esther, get Mrs. Turtle a little whisky and water.”
“Oh, my dear!” exclaimed Mrs. Turtle, “only the least little drop in the world, Esther dear. My heart, you know, my dear. Even so short a walk as this tires me out.”
Mrs. Mesurier responded sympathetically; and then, by way of making himself pleasant, Mr. Clegg suddenly broke in with such an extraordinary amenity of old-world gallantry that everybody’s hair stood on end.
“How old do you be?” he said, bowing to the new-comer.
“I beg your pardon,” said Mrs. Turtle, putting her hand to her ear; “but I’m slightly deaf.”
“How old do you be?” shouted the old man.
Though not unnaturally taken aback at such an unwonted conception of conversational intercourse, Mrs. Turtle recovered herself with considerable humour, and, bridling, with an old-world shake of her head, said,–
“What would you take me for?”
“I should say you were seventy, if you’re a day,” promptly answered the old man.
“Oh, dear, no!” replied Mrs. Turtle, with some pique; “I was only sixty last January.”
“Well, you carry your age badly,” retorted the old man, not to be beaten.
“What does he say, my dear?” said the poor old lady turning to Mrs. Mesurier.
“You carry your age badly,” shouted the determined old man; “she should see our Esther, shouldn’t she, Mary?”
The silence here of the young people was positively electric with suppressed laughter. Two of them escaped to explode in another room, and Esther and her mother were left to save the situation. But on such occasions as these Mrs. Mesurier grew positively great; and the manner in which she contrived to “turn the conversation,” and smooth over the terrible hiatus, was a feat that admits of no worthy description.
Presently the old man rose to go, as the clock neared five. He had promised to be home before dark, and Esther would think him “benighted” if he should be late. He evidently had been to America and back in that short afternoon.
“Well, Mary, good-bye,” he said; “one never knows whether we shall meet again. I’m getting an old man.”
“Eh, Uncle Clegg, you’re worth twenty dead ones yet,” said Mrs. Mesurier, reassuringly.
“What a strange old gentleman!” said Mrs. Turtle, somewhat bewildered, as this family apparition left the room.
“Good-bye, Uncle Clegg,” Esther was heard singing in the hall. “Good-bye, be careful of the steps. Good-bye. Give our love to Aunt Esther.”
Then the door would bang, and the whole house breathe a gigantic sigh of humorous relief.
(This was the kind of thing girls at home had to put up with!)
“Well, mother, did you ever see such a funny old person?” said Esther, on her return to the parlour.
“You mustn’t laugh at him,” Mrs. Mesurier would say, laughing herself; “he’s a good old man.”
“No doubt he’s good enough, mother dear; but he’s unmistakably funny,” Esther would reply, with a whimsical thought of the family tree. Yes, they were a distinguished race!
CHAPTER XVI
CHAPTER FOURTEEN CONCLUDED
No, the Mesuriers had absolutely nothing to hope for from their relations,–nothing to look back upon, less to look forward to. Most families, however poor and even _bourgeois_, had some memories to dignify them or some one possible contingency of pecuniary inheritance. At the very least, they had a ghost-story in the family. You seldom read the biographies of writers or artists without finding references, however remote, to at least one person of some distinction or substance. To have had even a curate for an ancestor, or a connection, would have been something, some frail link with gentility.
Now if, instead of being a rough old sea-captain of a trading ship, Grandfather Mesurier had only been a charming old white-headed admiral living in London, and glad, now and again, to welcome his little country granddaughters to stay with him! He would probably have been very dull, but then he would have looked distinguished, and taken one for walks in the Park, or bought one presents in the Burlington arcade. At least old admirals always seemed to serve this indulgent purpose in stories. At all events, he would have been something, some possible link with an existence of more generous opportunities. Dot and Mat would then at least have seen a nice boy or two occasionally, and in time got married as they deserved to be, and thus escape from this little provincial theatre of Sidon. Who could look at Dot and think that anything short of a miracle–a miracle like Esther’s own meeting with Mike–was going to find her a worthy mate in Sidon; and, suppose the miracle happened once more in her case, what of Mat and all the rest? To be the wife of a Sidonian town-councillor, at the highest,–what a fate!
Henry and she had often discussed this inadequate outlook for their younger sisters, quite in the manner of those whose positions of enlargement were practically achieved. The only thing to be done was for Henry to make haste to win a name as a writer, and Mike to make his fortune as an actor. Then another society would be at once opened to them all. Yes, what wonders were to take place then, particularly when Mike had made his fortune!–for the financial prospects of the young people were mainly centred in him. Literature seldom made much money–except when it wasn’t literature. Henry hoped to be too good a writer to hope to make money as well. But that would be a mere detail, when Mike was a flourishing manager; for when that had come about, had not Henry promised him that he would not be too proud to regard him as his patron to the extent of accepting from him an allowance of, say, a thousand a year. No, he positively wouldn’t agree to more than a thousand; and Mike had to be content with his promising to take that.
Meanwhile, what could girls at home do, but watch and wait and make home as pretty as possible, and, by the aid of books and pictures, reflect as much light from a larger world into their lives as might be.
On Henry’s going away, the three girls had promptly bespoken the reversion of his study as a little sitting-room for themselves. Here they concentrated their books, and some few pictures that appealed to tastes in revolt against Atlantic liners, but not yet developed to the appreciation of those true classics of art–to which indeed they had yet to be introduced. Such half-way masters as Leighton, Alma-Tadema, Sant, and Dicksee were as yet to them something of what Rossetti and Burne-Jones, and certain old Italian masters, were soon to become. In books, they had already learnt from Henry a truer, or at all events a more strenuous, taste; and they would grapple manfully with Carlyle and Browning, and presently Meredith, long before their lives had use or understanding for such tremendous nourishment.
One evening, as they were all three sitting cosily in Henry’s study,–as they still faithfully called it,–Esther was reading “Pride and Prejudice” aloud, while Dot and Mat busied themselves respectively with “macrame” work and a tea-cosy against a coming bazaar. Esther’s tasks in the house were somewhat illustrated by her part in the trio this evening. Her energies were mainly devoted to “the higher nights” of housekeeping, to the aesthetic activities of the home,–arranging flowers, dusting vases and pictures, and so on,–and the lightness of these employments was, it is to be admitted, an occasionally raised grievance among the sisters. To Dot and Mat fell much more arduous and manual spheres of labour. Yet all were none the less grateful for the decorative innovations which Esther, acting on occasional hints from her friend Myrtilla Williamson, was able to make; and if it were true that she hardly took her fair share of bed-making and pastry-cooking, it was equally undeniable that to her was due the introduction of Liberty silk curtains and cushions in two or three rooms. She too–alas, for the mistakes of young taste!–had also introduced painted tambourines, and swathed the lamps in wonderful turbans of puffed tissue paper. Was she to receive no credit for these services? Then it was she who had dared to do battle with her mother’s somewhat old-fashioned taste in dress; and whenever the Mesurier sisters came out in something specially pretty or fashionable, it was due to Esther.
Well, on this particular evening, she was, as we have said, taking her share in the housework by reading “Jane Austen” aloud to Dot and Mat; when the door suddenly opened, and James Mesurier stood there, a little aloof,–for it was seldom he entered this room, which perhaps had for him a certain painful association of his son’s rebellion. Perhaps, too, the picture of this happy little corner of his children–a world evidently so complete in itself, and daily developing more and more away from the parent world in the front parlour–gave him a certain pang of estrangement. Perhaps he too felt as he looked on them that same dreary sense of disintegration which had overtaken the mother on Henry’s departure; and perhaps there was something of that in his voice, as, looking at them with rather a sad smile, he said,–
“You look very comfortable here, children. I hope that’s a profitable book you are reading, Esther.”
“Oh, yes, father. It’s ‘Jane Austen,’ you know.”
“Well, I’m sorry to interrupt you, but I want a few words with Dorcas. She can join you again soon.”
So Dot, wondering what was in store for her, rose and accompanied her father to the front parlour, where Mrs. Mesurier was peacefully knitting in the lamplight.
“Dorcas, my dear,” he said, when the door was closed, “your mother and I have had a serious talk this evening on the subject of your joining the church. You are now nearly sixteen, and of an age to think for yourself in such matters; and we think it is time that you made some profession of your faith as a Christian before the world.”
The Church James Mesurier referred to was that branch of the English Nonconformists known as Baptists; and the profession of faith was the curious rite of baptism by complete immersion, the importance claimed for which by this sect is, perhaps, from a Christian point of view, made the less disproportionate by another condition attaching to it,–the condition that not till years of individual judgment have been reached is one eligible for the sacred rite. With that rationalism which religious sects are so skilful in applying to some unimportant point of ritual, and so careful not to apply to vital questions of dogma, the Baptists reasonably argue that to baptise an unthinking infant, and, by an external rite which has no significance except as the symbol of an internal decision, declare him a Christian, is nothing more than an idolatrous mummery. Wait till the child is of age to choose for him or herself, to understand the significance of the Christian revelation and the nature of the profession it is called upon to make; then if, by the grace of God, it chooses aright, let him or her be baptised. And for the manner of that baptism, if symbols are to be made use of by the Christian church,–and it is held wise among the Baptists to make use of few, and those the most central,–should they not be designed as nearly after the fashion set forth in the Bible itself as is possible? The “Ordinance” of the Lord’s Supper–as it is called amongst them–follows the procedure of the Last Supper as recorded in the Gospels; should not, therefore, the rite of baptism be in its details similarly faithful to authority? Now in Scripture, as is well known, baptisms were complete immersions, symbolic alike of the washing away of sin, and also of the dying to this world and the resurrection to the Life eternal in Christ Jesus.
So much theology was bred in the bone of all the young Mesuriers; and the youngest of them could as readily have capitulated these articles of belief as their father, who once more briefly summarised them to-night for the benefit of his daughter. He ended with something of a personal appeal. It had been one of the griefs of his life that Henry and Esther had both refused to join their father’s church, though Esther always dutifully attended it every Sunday morning; and it was thinking of them, though without naming them, that he said,–
“I met Mr. Trotter yesterday,”–Mr. Trotter was the local Baptist minister, and Dot remarked to herself that her father was able to pronounce his name without the smallest suspicion that such a name, as belonging to a minister of divine mysteries, was rather ludicrous, though indeed Baptist ministers seemed always to have names like that!–“and he asked me when some of my young ladies were going to join the church. I confess the question made me feel a little ashamed; for, you know, my dear, out of our large family not one of you has yet come forward as a Christian.”
“No, father,” said Dot, at last.
“I hope, my dear, you are not going to disappoint me in this matter.”
“No indeed, father,” said Dot, whose nature was pliable and sympathetic, as well as fundamentally religious; “but I’m afraid I haven’t thought quite as much about it as I should like to, and, if you don’t mind, I should like to have a few days to think it out.”
“Of course, my dear. That is a very right feeling; for the step is a solemn one, and should not be taken without reverent thought. You cannot do better than to talk it over with Mr. Trotter. If you have any difficulties, you can tell him; and I’m sure he would be delighted to help you. Isn’t it so, mother? Well, dear,” he continued, “you can run away now; but bear in mind what I have said, and I shall hope to hear that you have made the right choice before long. Kiss me, dear.”
And so, with something of a lump in her throat, Dot returned to the interrupted “Jane Austen.”
“Whatever did father want?” asked the two girls, looking up as she entered the room.
“What do you think?” said Dot. “He wants me to be baptised!”
CHAPTER XVII
DOT’S DECISION
Now, in thus appealing to Dot, her father had appealed to just the one out of all his children who was least likely to disappoint him. To Dot and Henry had unmistakably been transmitted the largest share of their father’s spirituality. Esther was not actively religious, any more than she was actively poetic. Hers was one of those composite, admirably balanced natures which include most qualities and faculties, but no one in excess of another. Such make those engaging good women of the world, who are able to understand and sympathise with the most diverse interests and temperaments; as it is the characteristic of a good critic to understand all those various products of art, which it would be impossible for him to create. Thus Esther could have delighted a saint with her sympathetic comprehension, as she could have healed the wounds of a sinner by her comprehensive sympathy; but it was certain she would never be, in sufficient excess, spiritually wrought or sensually rebellious to be one or the other. She was beautifully, buoyantly normal, with a happy, expansive, enjoying nature, glad in the sunlight, brave in the shadow, optimistically looking forward to blithe years of life and love with Mike and her friends, and not feeling the necessity of being anxious about her soul, or any other world but this. She was not shallow; but she merely realised life more through her intelligence than through her feelings. To have become a Baptist would have offended her intelligence, without bringing any satisfaction to spiritual instincts not, in any event, clamorous.
As for Henry, it was not only activity of intelligence, but activity of spirituality, that made it impossible for him to embrace any such narrow creed as that proposed to him; and, for the present, that spiritual activity found ample scope for itself in poetry.
Dot’s, however, was an intermediate case. With an intelligence active too, she united a spirituality torturingly intense, but for which she had no such natural creative outlet as Henry. With her loss of the old creed,–in discarding which these three sisters had followed the lead of their brother with a curious instinctiveness, almost, it would seem, independent of reasoning,–her spirituality had been left somewhat bleakly houseless, and she had often longed for some compromise by which she could reconcile her intelligence to the acceptance of some established home of faith, whose kindly enclosing walls should be more genially habitable to the soul than the cold, star-lit spaces which Henry declared to be sufficient temple.
Perhaps Esther’s commiseration of her sisters’ narrow opportunities was, so far as it related to Dot, a little unnecessary, for indeed Dot’s ambitions were not social. By nature shy and meditative, and with her religious bias, had she been born into a Catholic family, she might not improbably have found the world well lost in a sisterhood. The Puritan conscience had an uncomfortable preponderance in the deep places of her nature, and, far down in her soul, like her father, she would ask herself if pleasure could be the end of life–was there not something serious each of us could and ought to do, to justify his place in the world? Were we not all under some mysterious solemn obligation to do something, however little, in return for life?
Mat, on the other hand, had no such scruples. She was more like Esther in nature, with a touch of cynicism curling her dainty lip, arising, perhaps, from an early divination that she was to lack Esther’s opportunities. Perhaps it was because she was the pessimist–the quite cheerful pessimist–of the family, that she was by far the cleverest and most industrious at the housework. If it was her fate to be Cinderella, she might as well make the best of it, with a cynical endurance and good-humour, and be Cinderella with a good grace. Probably the only glass slipper in the family had already fallen to Esther. Never mind, though her good looks might fade with being a good girl at home, year by year, what did it matter, after all? Nothing mattered in the end. And thus, out of a great indifference, Mat developed a great unselfishness; and if you could name one special angel in the house of the Mesuriers, she was unmistakably Mat.
In addition to her religious promptings, Dot had lately developed a great sympathy for her father. Standing a little aside from the conflict between him and Henry, she was able to divine something of the feelings of both; and she had now and again caught a look of loneliness on her father’s face that made her ready to do almost anything to please him.
Of course the question was one for general consultation. She knew what Henry would say. It didn’t much matter anyhow, he would say, but it was a pity. How was intellectual freedom to be won, if those who had seen the light should thus deliberately forego it, time after time, from such merely sentimental reasons? And when she saw Henry, that was just what he did say.
“But,” she said, “it would make father so happy.”
“Yes, I know,” he answered; “and it would be very beautiful of you. Besides, of course, in one way it’s only a matter of symbolism; but then, on the other hand, it’s symbolism hardened into dogmatism that has done all the mischief. Do it, dear, if you like; I hardly know what to say. As you say, it will make father happy, and I shall quite understand.”
Dot was one of those natures that like to seek, and are liable to take, advice; so, after seeing Henry, she thought she would see what Mr. Trotter had to say; for, in spite of his unfortunate name, Mr. Trotter was a gentle, cultivated mind, and was indeed somewhat incongruously, perhaps in a mild way Jesuitically, circumstanced as a Baptist minister. Henry and he were great friends on literary matters; and Dot and he had had many talks, greatly helpful to her, on spiritual things. In fact, Chrysostom Trotter was one of those numerous half-way men between the old beliefs and their new modifications, which the continuous advance of scientific discovery and philosophical speculation on the one hand, and the obstinate survival of Christianity on the other, necessitate–if men of spiritual intuitions who are not poets and artists are to earn their living. There was nothing you could say to Chrysostom Trotter, provided you said it reverently, that would startle him. He knew all that long ago and far more. For, though obliged to trade in this backwater of belief, he was in many respects a very modern mind. You were hardly likely to know your Herbert Spencer as intimately as he, and all the most exquisite literature of doubt was upon his shelves. Though you might declare him superficially disingenuous, you could not, unless you were some commonplace atheist or materialist, gainsay the honest logic of his position.
“You believe that the world, that life, is a spiritual mystery?” he would say.
“Yes.”
“You do not for a moment think that any materialistic science has remotely approached an adequate explanation of its meaning?”
“Certainly not.”
“You believe too that, however it comes about, and whatever it means, there is an eternal struggle in man between what, for sake of argument, we will call the higher and lower natures?”
“Yes.”
“Well, then, this spiritual mystery, this struggle, are hinted at in various media of human expression, in an ever-changing variety of human symbols. Art chiefly concerns itself with the sexual mystery, with the wonderful love of man and woman, in its explanation of which alone science is so pitifully inadequate. Literature more fully concerns itself with the mystery of man’s indestructibly instinctive relation to what we call the unseen,–that is, the Whole, the Cosmos, God, or whatever you please to call it. But more than literature, religion has for centuries concerned itself with these considerations, has consciously and industriously sought to make itself the science of what we call the soul. It has thrown its observations, just as poetry and art have thrown their observations, into symbolic forms, of which Christianity is incomparably the most important. You don’t reject the revelation of human love because Hero and Leander are probably creations of the poet’s fancy. Will you reject the revelation of divine love, because it chances, for its greater efficiency in winning human hearts, to have found expression in a similar human symbolism? Personally, I hold that Christ actually lived, and was literally the Son of God; but, were the human literalness of his divine story discredited, the eternal verities of human degeneration, and a mysterious regeneration, would be no whit disproved. Externally, Christianity may be a symbol; essentially, it is a science of spiritual fact, as really as geology is a science of material fact.
“And as for its miraculous, supernatural, side,–are the laws of nature so easy to understand that we should find such a difficulty in accepting a few divergencies from them? He who can make laws for so vast a universe may surely be capable of inventing a few comparatively trivial exceptions.”
Not perhaps in so many words, but in some such spirit, would Chrysostom Trotter argue; and it was in some such fashion that he talked in his charmingly sympathetic way with Dorcas Mesurier, one afternoon, as she had tea with him in a study breathing on every hand the man of letters, rather than the minister of a somewhat antiquated sect.
“My dear Dorcas,” he said, “you know me well enough–you know me perhaps better than your father knows me–know me well enough to believe that I wouldn’t urge you to do this thing if I didn’t think it was right _for you_–as well as for your father and me. But I know it is right, and for this reason. You are a deeply religious nature, but you need some outward symbol to hold on to,–you need, so to say, the magnetising association of a religious organisation. Henry can get along very well, as many poets have, with his birds and his sunsets and so forth; but you need something more authoritative. It happens that the church I represent, the church of your father, is nearest to you. You might, with all the goodwill in the world, so far as I am concerned, embrace some other modification of the Christian faith; but here is a church, so to say, ready for you, familiar by long association, endeared to your father. You believe in God, you believe in the spiritual meaning of life, you believe that we poor human beings need something to keep our eyes fixed upon that spiritual meaning–well, dear Dorcas,” he ended, abruptly, “what do you think?”
“I’ll do it,” said Dot.
“Good girl,” said the minister; “sometimes it is a form of righteousness to waive our doubts for those who are at once so dear and good as your father. And don’t for a moment think that it will leave you just where you are. These outward acts are great energisers of the soul. Dear Dorcas, I welcome you into one of God’s many churches.”
So it was that Dot came to be baptised; and, to witness the ceremony, all the Mesuriers assembled at the chapel that Sunday evening,–even Henry, who could hardly remember when he used to sit in this still-familiar pew, and scribble love-verses in the back of his hymn-book during the sermon.
To the mere mocker, the rite of baptism by immersion might well seem a somewhat grotesque antic of sectarianism; but to any one who must needs find sympathy for any observance into which, in whatsoever forgotten and superseded time, has passed the prayerful enthusiasm of man, the rite could hardly fail of a moving solemnity. As Chrysostom Trotter ordered it, it was certainly made to yield its fullest measure of impressiveness. To begin with, the chapel was quite a comely edifice inside and out; and its ministerial end, with its singers’ gallery backed by great organ pipes, and fronted by a handsome pulpit, which Mr. Trotter had dared to garnish with chrysanthemums on each side of his Bible, had a modest, sacerdotal effect. Beneath the pulpit on ordinary occasions stood the Communion-table; but on evenings when the rite of baptism was prepared, this table, and a boarding on which it stood, were removed, revealing a tiled baptistry,–that is, a tiled tank, about eight feet long, and six wide, with steps on each side descending into about four feet of water.
Towards the close of the service, the minister would leave his pulpit, and, during the singing of a hymn, would presently emerge from his vestry in a long waterproof garment. As the hymn ended, some “sister” or “brother” that night to be admitted into the church, would timidly join him at the baptistry side, and together they would go down into the water.
Holding the hands of the new communicant, the minister, in a solemn voice, would say, “Sister,” or “Brother, on confession of your faith in our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, I baptise thee in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost.”
Then the organ would strike up a triumphant peal, and, to the accompaniment of its music and the mellow plashing of the water, the sister or brother would be plunged beneath the symbolic wave.
Great was the excitement, needless to say, in the Mesurier pew, as little Dot at last came forth from the vestry, and, stealing down into the water, took the minister’s out-stretched hands.
“There she is! There’s Dot!” passed round the pew, and the hardest young heart, whoever it belonged to, stopped beating, to hear the minister’s words. They seemed to come with a special personal tenderness,–
“Sister, on confession of your faith in our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, I baptise thee in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost.”
Once more the organ triumphant, and the mellow splashing of the water.
Dear little Dot, she had done it!
“Did you see father’s face?” Esther whispered to Henry.
Yes; perhaps none of them would ever do such a beautiful thing as Dot had done that night. At least there was one of James Mesurier’s children who had not disappointed him.
CHAPTER XVIII
MIKE AND HIS MILLION POUNDS
The most exquisite compliment a man has ever paid to him is worded something like this: “Well, dear, you certainly know how to make love;” and this compliment is always the reward, not of passion however sustained, or sentiment however refined, but of humour whimsically fantasticating and balancing both. It is the gentle laugh, not violating, but just humanising, that very solemn kiss; the quip that just saves passion from toppling over the brink into bathos, that mark the skilful lover. No lover will long be successful unless he is a humourist too, and is able to keep the heart of love amused. A lover should always be something of an actor as well; not, of course, for the purpose of feigning what he does not feel, but so that he may the better dramatise his sincerity!
Mike had therefore many advantages over those merely pretty fellows whose rivalry he had once been modest enough to fear. He was a master of all the child’s play of love; and to attempt to describe the fancies which he found to vary the game of love, would be to run the risk of exposing the limitations of the literary medium. No words can pull those whimsical faces, or put on those heart-breaking pathetic expressions, with which he loved to meet Esther after some short absence. Sometimes he would come into the room, a little forlorn sparrow of a creature, signifying, by a dejection in which his very clothes took part, that he was out in the east wind of circumstance and no one in the world cared a shabby feather for him. He would stand shivering in a corner, and look timorously from side to side, till at last he would pretend she had warmed him with her kisses, and generally made him welcome to the world.
Sometimes he would come in with his collar dismally turned up, and an old battered hat upon his head, and pretend that he hadn’t had a meal–of kisses–for a whole week; and occasionally he would come blowing out his cheeks like a king’s trumpeter, to announce that Mike Laflin might be at any moment expected. But for the most part these impersonations were in a minor key, as Mike had soon discovered that the more pathetic he was, the more he was hugged and called a “weenty,” which was one of his own sad little names for himself.
One of his “long-run” fairy-tales, as he would call them, was that each morning as he went to business, he really started out in search of a million pounds, which was somewhere awaiting him, and which he might break his shins over at any moment. It might be here, it might be there, it might come at any hour of the day. The next post might bring it. It might be in yonder Parcel Delivery van,–nothing more probable. Or at any moment it might fall from heaven in a parachute, or be at that second passing through the dock-gates, wearily home from the Islands of Sugar and Spice. You never could tell.
“Well, Mike,” said Esther, one evening, as he came in, hopping in a pitifully wounded way, and explaining that he had been one of the three ravens sitting on a bough which the cruel huntsman had shot through the wing, etc., “have you found your million pounds to-day?”
“No, not my million pounds,” said Mike. “I’m told I shall find them to-morrow.”
“Who told you?”
“The Weenty.”
“You silly old thing! Give me a kiss. Are you a dear? Tell me, aren’t you a dear?”
“No-p! I’m only a poor little houseless, roofless, windowless, chimney-less, Esther-less, brainless,
out-in-the-wind-and-the-snow-and-the-rain, Mike!”
“You’re the biggest dear in the world!”
“No, I’m not. I’m the littlest!”
“Suppose you found your million pounds, Mike?”
“Suppose! Didn’t I tell you I’m sure of it to-morrow?”
“Well, when you find it to-morrow, what will you do with it?”
“I’ll buy the moon.”
“The moon?”
“Yes; as a present for Henry.”
“Wouldn’t it be rather dear?”
“Not at all. Twenty thousand would buy it any time this last hundred years. But the worst of it is, no one wants it but the poets, and they cannot afford it. Yet if only a poet could get hold of it, why what a literary property it would be!”
“You silly old thing!”
“No! but you don’t seem to realise that I’m quite serious. Think of the money there would be for any poet who had acquired the exclusive literary rights in the moon! Within a week I’d have it placarded all over, ‘Literary trespassers will be prosecuted!’ And then I’ve no doubt Henry would lend me the Man in the Moon for my Christmas pantomimes.”
“After all, it’s not a bad idea,” said Esther.
“Of course it’s not,” said Mike; “but be careful not to mention it to Henry just yet. I shouldn’t like to disappoint him–for, of course, before we took any final steps in the purchase, we’d have to make sure that it wasn’t, as some people think, made of green cheese.”
“But never mind about the moon. Tell us how you got on with The Sothern.”
The Sothern was an amateur dramatic club in Tyre which took itself very seriously, and to which Mike was seeking admission, as a first step towards London management. He had that day passed an examination before three of the official members, solemn and important as though they had been the Honourable Directors of Drury Lane, and had been admitted to membership in the club, with the promise of a small part in their forthcoming performance.
“Oh, that’s good!” said Esther. “What were they like?”
“Oh, they were all right,–rather humorous. They gave me ‘Eugene Aram’ to read–Me reading ‘Eugene Aram’!–and a scene out of ‘London Assurance,’ which was, of course, better. Naturally, not one of the men was the remotest bit like himself. One was a queer kind of Irving, another a sad sort of Arthur Roberts, and the other was–shall we say, a Tyrian Wyndham.”
Actors, like poets, have provincial parodists of their styles in even greater numbers, so adoringly imitative is humanity. Some day, Mike would have his imitators,–boys who pulled faces like his, and prided themselves on having the Laflin wrinkles; just as it was once the fashion for girls to look like Burne-Jones pictures, or young poets to imitate Mr. Swinburne.
“Yes, I’ve got my first part. I’ve got it in my pocket,” said Mike.
“Oh, really! That’s splendid!” exclaimed Esther, with delight.
“Wait till you see it,” said Mike, bringing out a French’s acting edition of some forgotten comedy. “Yes; guess how many words I’ve got to say! Just exactly eleven. And such words!”
“Well, never mind, dear. It’s a beginning.”
“Certainly, it’s a beginning,–the very beginning of a beginning.”
“Come, let me see it, Mike. What are you supposed to be?”
At last Mike was persuaded to confess the humble little _role_ for which the eminent actors who had consented to be his colleagues had cast him. He was to be the comic boy of a pastry-cook’s man, and his distinguished part in the action of the piece was to come in at a certain moment with the pie that had been ordered, and, as he delivered it, he was to remark, “That’s a pie as is a pie, is that there pie!”
“Oh, Mike, what a shame!” exclaimed Esther. “How absurd! Why, you’re a better actor with your little finger than any one of them with their whole body.”
“Ah, but they don’t know that yet, you see.”
“Any one could see it if they looked at your face half-a-minute.”
“I wanted to play the part of Snodgrass; but they couldn’t think of giving me that, of course. So, do you know what I pretended, to comfort myself? I pretended I was Edward Kean waiting in the passages at Drury Lane, with all the other fine fellows looking down at the shabby little gloomy man from the provinces. That was conceit for you, wasn’t it?”
The pathos of this was, of course, irresistible to Esther, and Mike was thereupon hugged and kissed as he expected.
“Never mind,” he said, “you’ll see if I don’t make something of the poor little part after all.”
And, thereupon, he described what he laughingly called his “conception,” and how he proposed to dress and make up, so vividly that it was evident that the pastry-cook’s boy was already to him a personality whose actions and interests were by no means limited to his brief appearance on the stage, but who, though accidentally he had but few words to speak before the audience, was a very voluble and vital little person in scenes where the audience did not follow him.
“Yes, you see I’ll do something with it. The best of a small part,” said Mike, speaking as one of experience, “is that it gives you plenty of opportunity for making the audience wish there was more of it.”
“From that point of view, you certainly couldn’t have a finer part,” laughed Esther.
Then for a moment Mike skipped out of the room, and presently knocked, and, putting in a funny face, entered carrying a cushion with alacrity.
“That’s a pie as is a pie, is that there pie!” he fooled, throwing the cushion into Esther’s lap, where presently his little red head found its way too.
“How can you love such a silly little creature?” he said, looking up into Esther’s blue eyes.
“I don’t know, I’m sure,” said Esther; “but I do,” and, bending down, she kissed the wistful boy’s face. Was it because Esther was in a way his mother, as well as his sweetheart, that she seemed to do all the kissing?
Thus was Mike’s first part rehearsed and rewarded.
CHAPTER XIX
ON CERTAIN ADVANTAGES OF A BACKWATER
Though from a maritime point of view, Tyre was perhaps the chief centre of conjunction for all the main streams of the world, from the point of view of literature and any other art, it was an admitted backwater. Take what art you pleased, Tyre was a dunce. Even to music, the most persuasive of the arts, it was deaf. Surely, of all cities, it had not been built to music. It possessed, indeed, one private-spirited town-councillor, who insisted on presenting it with nude sculptures and mysterious paintings which it furiously declined. If Tyre was to be artistically great, it must certainly be with a greatness reluctantly thrust upon it.
Still Henry and Ned had sense enough to be glad that they had been born there. It was from no mere recognition of an inexpensively effective background; perhaps they hardly knew why they were glad till later on. But, meanwhile, they instinctively laid hold of the advantages of their limitations. Had they been London-born and Oxford-bred, they would have been much more fashionable in their tastes; but their very isolation, happily, saved them from the passing superstitions of fashion; and they were thus able to enjoy the antiquities of beauty with the same freshness of appetite as though they had been novelties. If Henry was to meet Ned some evening with the announcement that he had a wonderful new book to share with him, it was just as likely to be Sir Philip Sidney’s “Astrophel and Stella,” as any more recent publication–though, indeed, they contrived to keep in touch with the literary developments of the day with a remarkable instinct, and perhaps a juster estimate of their character and value than those who were taking part in them; for it is seldom that one can be in the movement and at the centre as well.
As a matter of fact, there was little that interested them, or which at all events didn’t disappoint and somewhat bewilder. The novel was groaning under the thraldom of realism; poetry, with one or two exceptions, was given up to bric-a-brac and metrical ingenuity. To young men for whom French romanticism was still alive, who were still content to see the world through the spiritual eyes of Shelley and Keats, and who had not yet learned to belittle Carlyle, there seemed a strange lack of generosity and, indeed, vitality in the literary ideals of the hour. The novel particularly seemed barren and unprofitable to them, more and more an instrument of science than a branch of literature. Laughter had deserted it, as clearly as romance or pathos, and more and more it was becoming the vehicle of cynical biology on the one hand, and Unitarian theology on the other. Besides, strangest of all, men were praised for lacking those very qualities which to these boys had seemed essential to literature. The excellences praised were the excellences of science, not literature. In fact, there seemed to be but one excellence, namely, accuracy of observation; and to write a novel with any eye to beauty of language was to err, as the writer of a scientific treatise would err who endeavoured to add charm and grace to the sober record of his investigations. Dull sociological analysts reigned in the once laughing domain of Cervantes, of Fielding and Thackeray, of Dumas and Dickens, of Hugo and Gautier and George Sand.
Were they born too late? Were they anachronisms from the forgotten age of romanticism, or were they just born in time to assist at the birth of another romantic, idealistic age? Would dreams and love and beautiful writing ever come into fashion again? Would the poet be again a creature of passion, and the novelist once more make you laugh and cry; and would there be essayists any more, whose pages you would mark and whose phrases you would roll over and over again on your tongue, with delight at some mysterious magic in the words?
History may be held to have answered these questions since then, much in favour of those young men, or at all events is engaged in answering them; but, meanwhile, what a miraculous refreshment in a dry and thirsty land was the new book Henry Mesurier had just discovered, and had eagerly brought to share with Ned in their tavern corner one summer evening in 1885.
Ned was late; but when Henry had sipped a little at his port, and turned to the new-born exquisite pages, he hardly noticed how the minutes were going by as he read. Presently he had come to the end of the first volume, the only one he had with him, and he raised his eyes from the closing page with that exquisite exaltation, that beatific satisfaction of mind and spirit,–even almost one might say of body,–which for the lover of literature nothing in the world like a fine passage can bring.
He turned again to the closing sentences: “_Yes; what was wanting was the heart that would make it impossible to witness all this; and the future would be with the forces that would beget a heart like that. His favourite philosophy had said, Trust the eye. Strive to be right always, regarding the concrete experience. Never falsify your impressions. And its sanction had been at least effective here, in saying: It is what I may not see! Surely, evil was a real thing; and the wise man wanting in the sense of it, where not to have been, by instinctive election, on the right side was to have failed in life_.”
The passage referred to the Roman gladiatorial shows, and to the philosophic detachment by which Marcus Aurelius was able to see and yet not to see them; and the whole book was the spiritual story of a young Roman’s soul, a priestlike artistic temperament, born in the haunted twilight between the setting sun of pagan religion and philosophy and the dawn of the Christian idea. The theme presented many fascinating analogies to the present time; and in the hero’s “sensations and ideas” Henry found many correspondences with his own nature. In him, too, was united that same joy in the sensuous form, that same adoration of the spiritual mystery, the temperaments in one of artist and priest. He, too, in a dim fashion indeed, and under conditions of culture less favourable, had speculated and experimented in a similar manner upon the literary art over which as yet he had acquired–how crushingly this exquisite book taught him–such pathetically uncertain mastery. That impassioned comradeship in books beautiful, was it not to-day Ned’s and his, as all those years before it had been that of Marius and Flavian?
And where in the world _was_ Ned? How he would kindle at a passage like this: “_To keep the eye clear by a sort of exquisite personal alacrity and cleanliness, extending even to his dwelling-place; to discriminate, ever more and more exactly, select form and colour in things from what was less select; to meditate much on beautiful visible objects, on objects, more especially, connected with the period of youth,–on children at play in the morning, the trees in early spring, on young animals, on the fashions and amusements of young men; to keep ever by him, if it were but a single choice flower, a graceful animal or sea-shell, as a token and representation of the whole kingdom of such things; to avoid jealously, in his way through the world, everything repugnant to sight; and, should any circumstance tempt him to a general converse in the range of such objects, to disentangle himself from that circumstance at any cost of place, money, or opportunity: such were, in brief outline, the duties recognised, the rights demanded, in this new formula of life_.”
And again, what gleaming single phrases, whole counsels of existence in a dozen words! He must copy out some of them for Esther. This, for example: “_Not pleasure, but fulness, completeness of life generally_,” or this: “_To be able to make use of the flower when the fruit, perhaps, was useless or poisonous_” or again this: “_To be absolutely virgin towards a direct and concrete experience_”–and there were a hundred more.
Then for the young craftsman what an insight into, what a compassionate, childish remembrance of the moods and the little foolish accidents of creation: “_His dilettanteism, his assiduous preoccupation with what might seem but the details of mere form or manner, was, after all, bent upon the function of bringing to the surface, sincerely and in their integrity, certain strong personal intuitions, certain visions or apprehensions of things as being, with important results, in this way rather than that–apprehensions which the artistic or literary expression was called upon to follow, with the exactness of wax or clay, clothing the model within it. Flavian, too, with his fine, clear mastery of the practically effective, had early laid hold of the principle, as axiomatic in literature: That ‘to know when one’s self is interested, is the first condition of interesting other people'”_ And once more: “_As it oftenest happens also, with natures of genuinely poetic quality, those piecemeal beginnings came suddenly to harmonious completeness among the fortunate incidents, the physical heat and light, of one singularly happy day_.”
And, over all, what a beauty! a beauty at once so sensuous and so spiritual–the beauty of flowering laurel, the beauty of austerity aflower. Here the very senses prayed. Surely this was the most beautiful prose book ever written! It had been compared, he saw, with Gautier’s “Mademoiselle de Maupin;” but was not the beauty of that masterpiece, in comparison with the beauty of this, as the beauty of a leopard-skin to the beauty of a statue of Minerva, withdrawn in a grove of ilex.
Still Ned delayed, and, meanwhile, the third glass of port had come and gone, and at length, reluctantly, Henry emerged from his tavern-cloister upon the warm brilliancy of the streets. All around him the lights beaconed, and the women called with bright eyes. But to-night there was no temptation for him in these things. They but recalled another exquisite quotation from his new-found treasure, which he stopped under a lamp to fix in his memory: “_And, as the fresh, rich evening came on, there was heard all over Rome, far above a whisper, the whole town seeming hushed to catch it distinctly, the living, reckless call to ‘play,’ from the sons and daughters of foolishness to those in whom their life was still green_–Donec virenti canities abest! Donec virenti canities abest! _Marius could hardly doubt how Cornelius would have taken the call. And as for himself, slight as was the burden of positive moral obligation with which he had entered Rome, it was to no wasteful and vagrant affections, such as these, that his Epicureanism had committed him_.”
But what could have happened to Ned?
CHAPTER XX
THE MAN IN POSSESSION
One morning, two or three months after Henry had left home, old Mr. Lingard came to him as he sat bent, drearily industrious, over some accounts, and said that he wished him in half-an-hour’s time to go with him to a new client; and presently the two set out together, Henry wondering what it was to be, and welcoming anything that even exchanged for a while one prison-house for another.
“I am taking you,” said the old man, as they walked along together, “to a firm of carriers and carters whose affairs have just come into our hands; there is a dispute arisen between the partners. We represent certain interests, as I shall presently explain to you, and you are to be _our_ representative,–our man in possession,” and the old gentleman laughed uncannily.
“You never expected to be a man in possession, did you?”
Henry thrilled with a sense of awful intimacy, thus walking and even jesting with his august employer.
“It may very likely be a long business,” the old man continued; “and I fear may be a little dull for you. For you must be on the spot all day long. Your lunch will be served to you from the manager’s house; I will see to that. Actually, there will be very little for you to do, beyond looking over the day-book and receipts for the day. The main thing is for you to be there,–so to say, the moral effect of your presence,”–and the old gentleman laughed again. Then, with an amused sympathy that seemed almost exquisite to Henry, he chuckled out, looking at him, from one corner of his eye, like a roguish skeleton–
“You’ll be able to write as much poetry as you like. I see you’ve got a book with you. Well, it will keep you awake. I don’t mind that,–or even the poetry,–so long as you don’t forget the day-book.”
“Thank you, sir,” said Henry, almost hysterically.
“I suppose,” the old man continued, presently, and in all he said there was a tone of affectionate banter that quite won Henry’s heart, “that you’re still as set on literature as ever. Well, well, far be it from me to discourage you; but, my dear boy, you’ll find out that we can’t live on dreams.” (Henry thought, but didn’t dare to say, that it was dreams alone that made it possible to live at all.) “I suppose you think I’m a dried-up old fellow enough. Well, well, I’ve had my dreams too. Yes, I’ve had my dreams,”–Henry thought of what he had discovered that day in the old man’s diary,–“and I’ve written my verses to my lady’s eyebrow in my time too. Ah, my boy, we are all young and foolish once in our lives!” and it was evident what a narrow and desperate escape from being a poet the old man had had.
They had some distance to walk, for the stables to which they were bound were situated in an old and rather disreputable part of the town. “It’s not a nice quarter,” said Mr. Lingard, “not particularly salubrious or refined,” as bad smells and dirty women began to cross their path; “but they are nice people you’ve got to deal with, and the place itself is clean and nice enough, when you once get inside.”
“Here we are,” he said, presently, as they stopped short of an old-fashioned house, set in a high red-brick wall which seemed to enclose quite a considerable area of the district. In the wall, a yard or two from the house, was set a low door, with a brass bell-pull at the side which answered to Mr. Lingard’s summons with a far-off clang. Soon was heard the sound of hob-nailed boots, evidently over a paved yard, and a big carter admitted them to the enclosure, which immediately impressed them with its sense of country stable-yard cleanliness, and its country smell of horses and provender. The stones of the courtyard seemed to have been individually washed and scoured, and a small space in front of a door evidently leading to the house was chalked over in the prim, old-fashioned way.
“Is Mr. Flower about?” asked Mr. Lingard; and, as he asked the question, a handsome, broad-shouldered man of about forty-five came down the yard. It was a massive country face, a little heavy, a little slow, but exceptionally gentle and refined.
“Good-morning, Mr. Lingard.”
“Good-morning, Mr. Flower. This is our representative, Mr. Mesurier, of whom I have already spoken to you. I’m sure you will get on well together; and I’m sure he will give you as little trouble as possible.”
Henry and Mr. Flower shook hands, and, as men sometimes do, took to each other at once in the grasp of each other’s hands, and the glances which accompanied it.
Then the three walked further up the yard, to the little office where Henry was to pass the next few weeks; and as Mr. Lingard turned over books, and explained to Henry what he was expected to do, the sound of horses kicking their stalls, and rattling chains in their mangers, came to him from near at hand with a delightful echo of the country.
When Mr. Lingard had gone, Mr. Flower asked Henry if he’d care to look at the horses. Henry sympathetically consented, though his knowledge of horse-flesh hardly equalled his knowledge of accounts. But with the healthy animal, in whatever form, one always feels more or less at home, as one feels at home with the green earth, or that simple creature the sea.
Mr. Flower led the way to a long stable where some fifty horses protruded brown and dappled haunches on either hand. It was all wonderfully clean and sweet, and the cobbled pavement, the straw beds, the hay tumbling in sweet-scented bunches into the stalls from the loft overhead, made you forget that around this bucolic enclosure swarmed and rotted the foulest slums of the city, garrets where coiners plied their amateur mints, and cellars where murderers lay hidden in the dark.
“It’s like a breath of the country,” said Henry, unconsciously striking the right note.
“You’re right there,” said Mr. Flower, at the same moment heartily slapping the shining side of a big chestnut mare, after the approved manner of men who love horses. To thus belabour a horse on its hinder-parts would seem to be equivalent among the horse-breeding fraternity to chucking a buxom milkmaid under the chin.
“You’re right there,” he said; “and here’s a good Derbyshire lass for you,” once more administering a sounding caress upon his sleek favourite.
The horse turned its head and whinnied softly at the attention; and it was evident it loved the very sound of Mr. Flower’s voice.
“Have you ever been to Derbyshire?” asked Mr. Flower, presently, and Henry immediately scented an idealism in the question.
“No,” he answered; “but I believe it’s a beautiful county.”
“Beautiful’s no name for it,” said Mr. Flower; “it’s just a garden.”
And as Henry caught a glance of his eyes, he realised that Derbyshire was Mr. Flower’s poetry,–the poetry of a countryman imprisoned in the town,–and that when he died he just hoped to go to Derbyshire.
“Ah, there are places there,–places like Miller’s Dale, for instance,–I’d rather take my hat off to than any bishop,”–and Henry eagerly scented something of a thinker; “for God made them for sure, and bishops–well–” and Mr. Flower wisely left the rest unsaid.
Thus they made the tour of the stables; and though Henry’s remarks on the subject of slapped horse-flesh had been anything but those of an expert, it was tacitly agreed that Mr. Flower and he had taken to each other. Nor, as he presently found, were Mr. Flower’s interests limited to horses.
“You’re a reader, I see,” he said, presently, when they had returned to the office. “Well, I don’t get much time to read nowadays; but there’s nothing I enjoy better, when I’ve got a pipe lit of an evening, than to sit and listen to my little daughter reading Thackeray or George Eliot.”
Of course Henry was interested.
“Now there was a woman who knew country life,” Mr. Flower continued. “‘Silas Marner,’ or ‘Adam Bede.’ How wonderfully she gets at the very heart of the people! And not only that, but the very smell of country air.”
And Mr. Flower drew a long breath of longing for Miller’s Dale.
Henry mentally furbished up his George Eliot to reply.
“And ‘The Mill on the Floss’?” he said.
“And ‘Scenes from Clerical Life,'” said Mr. Flower. “There are some rare strokes of nature there.”
And so they went on comparing notes, till a little blue-eyed girl of about seventeen appeared, carrying a dainty lunch for Henry, and telling Mr. Flower that his own lunch was ready.
“This is my daughter of whom I spoke,” said Mr. Flower.
“She who reads Thackeray and George Eliot to you?” said the Man in Possession; and, when they had gone, he said to himself “What a bright little face!”
CHAPTER XXI
LITTLE MISS FLOWER
Little Miss Flower continued to bring Henry his lunch with great punctuality each day; and each day he found himself more and more interested in its arrival, though when it had come he ate it with no special haste. Indeed, sometimes it almost seemed that it had served its purpose in merely having been brought, judging by the moments of reverie in which Henry seemed to have forgotten it, and to be thinking of something else.
Yes, he had soon begun to watch for that bright little face, and it was hardly to be wondered at; for, particularly come upon against such a background, the face had something of the surprise of an apparition. It seemed all made of light; and when one o’clock had come, and Henry heard the expected footsteps of his little waiting-maid, and the tinkle of the tray she carried, coming up the yard, her entrance was as though some one had carried a lamp into the dark office. Surely it was more like the face of a spirit than that of a little human girl, and you would almost have expected it to shine in the dark. When you got used to the light of it, you realised that the radiance poured from singularly, even disproportionately, large blue eyes, set beneath a broad white brow of great purity, and that what at first had seemed rays of light around her head was a mass of sunny gold-brown hair which glinted even in shadow.
Strange indeed are the vagaries of the Spirit of Beauty! From how many high places will she turn away, yet delight to waste herself upon a slum like this! How fantastic the accident that had brought such a face to flower in such a spot!–and yet hardly more fantastic, he reflected, than that which had sown his own family haphazard where they were. Was it the ironic fate of power to be always a god in exile, turning mean wheels with mighty hands; and was Cinderella the fable of the eternal lot of beauty in this capriciously ordered world?
Yes, what chance wind, blowing all the way from Derbyshire, had set down Mr. Flower with his little garden of girls in this uncongenial spot? For by this Henry had made the acquaintance of the whole family: Mr. and Mrs. Flower and four daughters in all,–all pretty girls, but not one of the others with a face like that,–which was another puzzle. How is it that out of one family one will be chosen by the Spirit of Beauty or genius, and the others so unmistakably left? There could be no doubt as to whom had been chosen here.
One day the step coming up the yard at one o’clock seemed to be different, and when the door opened it was another sister who had brought his lunch that day. Her eldest sister was ill, she explained, and in bed; and it was so for the next day, and again the next. Could it be possible that Henry had watched so eagerly for that little face, that he missed it so much already?
The next morning he bought some roses on his way through town, and begged that they might be allowed to brighten her room; and the next day surely it was the same light little tread once more coming up the yard. Joy! she was better again. She looked pale, he said anxiously, and ventured to say too that he had missed her. As she blushed and looked down, he saw that she wore one of his roses in her bosom.
He had already begun to lend her books, which she returned, always with some clever little criticism, often girlishly naive, but never merely conventional. There were brains under her bright hair. One day Henry had run out of literature, and asked her if she could lend him a book. Anything,–some novel he had read before; it didn’t matter. Oh, yes, he hadn’t read George Eliot for ever so long. Had she “The Mill on the Floss”? Yes, it had been a present from her father. She would bring that. As she lingered a moment, while Henry looked at the book, his eye fell upon a name on the title-page: “Angel Flower.”
“Is that your name, Miss Flower?” he said.
“Yes; father wrote it there. My real name is Angelica; but they call me Angel, for short,” she answered, smiling.
“Are you surprised?” said Henry, suddenly blushing like a girl, as though he had never ventured on such a small gallantry before. “Angelica! How did you come to get such a beautiful name?”
“Father loves beautiful names, and his grandmother was called Angelica.”
“I wonder if I might call you Angelica?” presently ventured Henry, in a low voice.
“Do you think you know me well enough?” said Angelica, with a little gasp, which was really joy, in her breath.
Henry didn’t answer; but their eyes met in a long, still look. In each heart behind the stillness was a storm of indescribable sweetness. Henry leaned forward, his face grown very pale, and impulsively took Angelica’s hand,–
“I think, after all, I’d rather call you Angel,” he said.
CHAPTER XXII
MIKE’S FIRST LAURELS
The gardens of Sidon had a curious habit of growing laurel-trees; laurels and rhododendrons were the only wear in shrubs. Rhododendrons one can understand. They are to the garden what mahogany is to the front parlour,–the _bourgeoisie_ of the vegetable kingdom. But the laurel,–what use could they have for laurel in Sidon? Possibly they supplied it to the rest of the world,–market-gardeners, so to say, to the Temple of Fame; it could hardly be for home consumption. Well, at all events, it was a peculiarity fortunate for Esther’s purpose, as one morning, soon after breakfast, she went about the garden cutting the glossiest branches of the distinguished tree. As she filled her arms with them, she recalled with a smile the different purpose for which, dragged at the heels of one of Henry’s enthusiasms, she had gathered them several years before.
At that period Henry had been a mighty entomologist; and, as the late summer came on, he and all available sisters would set out, armed with butterfly-nets and other paraphernalia, just before twilight, to the nearest woodland, where they would proceed to daub the trees with an intoxicating preparation of honey and rum,–a temptation to which moths were declared in text-books to be incapable of resistance. Then, as night fell, Henry would light his bull’s-eye, and cautiously visit the various snares. It was a sight worth seeing to come upon those little night-clubs of drunken and bewildered moths, hanging on to the sweetness with tragic gluttony,–an easy prey for Henry’s eager fingers, which, as greedy of them as they of the honey, would seize and thrust them into the lethal chamber, in the form of a cigar-box loosely filled with bruised laurel leaves, which hung by a strap from his shoulder.
It was for such exciting employment that Esther had once gathered laurel leaves. And, once again, she remembered gathering them one Shakespeare’s birthday, to crown a little bust in Henry’s study. The sacred head had worn them proudly all day, and they all had a feeling that somehow Shakespeare must know about it, and appreciate the little offering; just as even to-day one might bring roses and myrtle, or the blood of a maiden dove to Venus, and expect her to smile upon our affairs of the heart.
But it was for a dearer purpose that Esther was gathering them this morning. That coming evening Mike was to utter his first stage-words in public. The laurel was to crown the occasion on which Mike was to make that memorable utterance: “That’s a pie as is a pie, is that there pie!”
Now while Esther was busily weaving this laurel into a wreath, Henry was busily weaving the best words he could find into a sonnet to accompany the wreath. When Angel duly brought him his lunch, it was finished, and lay about on his desk in rags and tatters of composition. Angel was going to the performance with her sisters,–for all these young people were fond of advertising each other, and he had soon told her about Mike,–so she was interested to hear the sonnet. Whatever other qualities poetry may lack, the presence of generous sincerity will always give it a certain value, to all but the merely supercilious; and this sonnet, boyish in its touches of grandiloquence, had yet a certain pathos of strong feeling about it.
Not unto him alone whom loud acclaim Declares the victor does the meed belong, For others, standing silent in the throng, May well be worthier of a nobler fame; And so, dear friend, although unknown thy name Unto the shouting herd, we would give tongue To our deep thought, and the world’s great among By this symbolic laurel thee proclaim.
And if, perchance, the herd shall find thee out In coming time, and many a nobler crown To one they love to honour gladly throw; Wilt thou not turn thee from their eager shout, And whisper o’er these leaves, then sere and brown: ‘Thou’rt late, O world! love knew it long ago?’
The reader will probably agree with Angel in considering the last line the best. But, of course, she thought the whole was wonderful.
“How wonderful it must be to be able to write!” she said, with a look in her face which was worth all the books ever written.
“And how wonderful even to have something written to one like that!”
“Surely that must have happened to you,” said Henry, slyly.
“You’re only laughing at me.”
“No, I’m not. You don’t know what may have been written to you. Poems may quite well have been written to you without your having heard of them. The poet mayn’t have thought them worthy of you.”
“What nonsense! Why, I don’t know any poets!”
“Oh!” said Henry.
“I mean, except you.”
“And how do you know that I haven’t written a whole book full of poems to you? I’ve known you–how long now?”
“Two months next Monday,” said Angel, with that chronological accuracy on such matters which seems to be a special gift of women in love. Men in love are nothing like so accurate.
“Well, that’s long enough, isn’t it? And I’ve had nothing else to do, you know.”
“But you don’t care enough about me?”
“You never know.”
“But tell me really, have you written something for me?”
“Ah, you’d like to know now, wouldn’t you?”
“Of course I would. Tell me. It would make me very happy.”
“It really would?”
“You know it would.”
“But why?”
“It would.”
“But you couldn’t care for the poetry, unless you cared for the poet?”
“Oh, I don’t know. Poetry’s poetry, isn’t it, whoever makes it? But what if I did care a little for the poet?”
“Do you mean you do, Angel?”
“Ah, you want to know now, don’t you?”
“Tell me. Do tell me.”
“I’ll tell you when you read me my poem,” and as Angel prepared to run off with a laugh, Henry called after her,–
“You will really? It’s a bargain?”
“Yes, it’s a bargain,” she called back, as she tripped off again down the yard.
* * * * *
Mike’s _debut_ was as great a success as so small a part could make it; and the main point about it was the excitement of knowing that this was an actual beginning. He had made them all laugh and cry in drawing-rooms for ever so long; but to-night he was on the stage, the real stage–real, at all events, for him, for Mike could never be an amateur. Esther’s eyes filled with glad tears as the well-loved little figure popped in, with a baker’s paper hat on his head, and delivered the absurd words; and if you had looked at Henry’s face too, you would have been at a loss to know which loved the little pastry-cook’s boy best.
When Mike returned to his dressing-room, a mysterious box was awaiting him. He opened it, and found Esther’s wreath and Henry’s sonnet.
“God bless them,” he said.
No doubt it was very childish and sentimental, and old-fashioned; but these young people certainly loved each other.
As Mike had left the stage, Henry had turned round and smiled at some one a few seats away. Esther had noticed him, and looked in the same direction.
“Who was that you bowed to, Henry?”
“I’ll tell you another time,” he said; for he had a good deal to tell her about Angel Flower.
CHAPTER XXIII
THE MOTHER OF AN ANGEL
The Man in Possession was becoming more and more a favourite at Mr. Flower’s. One day Mr. Flower, taking pity on his loneliness, suggested that he might possibly prefer to have his lunch in company with them all down at the house. Henry gladly embraced the proposal, and thus became the daily honoured guest of a family, each member of which had some simple human attraction for him. He had already won the heart of simple Mrs. Flower, few and brief as had been his encounters with her, and that heart she had several times coined in unexpected cakes and other dainties of her own making; but when he thus became partially domiciled with the family, she was his slave outright. There was a reason for this, which will need, and may perhaps excuse, a few lines entirely devoted to Mrs. Flower, who, on her own peculiar merits, deserves them.
Perhaps to introduce Eliza Flower in this way is to take her more seriously than any of her affectionate acquaintance were able to do. For, somehow, people had a bad habit of laughing at Mrs. Flower, though they admitted she was the hardest-working, best-hearted little housewife in the world. Housewife in fact she was _in excelsis_, not to say _ad absurdum_. No little woman who worked herself to skin-and-bone to keep things straight, and the home comfortable, was ever a more typical “squaw.” Whatever her religious opinions, which, one may be sure, were inflexibly orthodox, there can be no question that Mr. Flower was her god, and, as the hymn says, heaven was her home. To serve God and Mr. Flower were to her the same thing; and there can be little doubt that a god who had no socks to darn, or linen to keep spotless, was a god whom Mrs. Flower would have found it impossible to conceive.
A more complete and delighted absorption in the physical comforts and nourishments of the human creature than Mrs. Flower’s, it would be impossible for dreamer to imagine. Such an absolute adjustment between a being of presumably infinite aspirations and immortal discontents and its environment, is a happiness seldom encountered by philosophers. To think of death for poor Mrs. Flower was to conceive a homelessness peculiarly pathetic; unless, indeed, there are kitcheners to superintend, beds to make, rooms to “turn out,” and four spring-cleanings a year in heaven. Of what use else was the bewildering gift of immortality to one who was touchingly mortal in all her tastes? Indeed, Henry used to say that Mrs. Flower was the most convincing argument against the immortality of the soul that he had ever met.
Yet, though it was quite evident that there was nothing in the world else she cared so much to do, and though indeed it was equally evident that she was one of the best-natured little creatures in the world, she did not deny herself a certain more or less constant asperity of reference to occupations which kept her on her feet from morning till night, and made her the slave of the whole house, in spite of four big idle daughters. And she with rheumatism too, so bad that she could hardly get up and down stairs!
Probably nothing so much as Henry’s respectful sympathy for this immemorial rheumatism had contributed to win Mrs. Flower’s heart. As to the precise amount of rheumatism from which Mrs. Flower suffered, Henry soon realised that there seemed to be an irreverent scepticism in the family, nothing short of heartless; for rheumatism so poignantly expressive, so movingly dramatised, he never remembered to have met. Mrs. Flower could not walk across the floor without grimaces of pain, or piteous indrawings of her breath; and yet demonstrations that you might have thought would have softened stones, left her unfeeling audience not only unmoved, but apparently even unobservant. From sheer decency, Henry would flute out something to show that her suffering was not lost on him; but it is to be feared the young ones would only wink at each other at this sign of unsophistication.
“Oh, you unfeeling child!” Mrs. Flower would exclaim, as sometimes she caught them exchanging comments in this way. “And your father, there, is just as bad,” she would say, impatient to provoke somebody.
This remark would probably prompt Mr. Flower to the indulgence of a form of matrimonial banter which was not unlike the endearments he bestowed upon his horses, and which, when you knew that he loved the little quaint woman with all his heart, you were able to translate into more customary modes of affection.
“Yes, indeed,” he would say, “it’s evidently time I was looking out for some active young woman, Eliza–when you begin limping about like that. It’s a pity, but the best of us must wear out some day–“
This superficially heartless pleasantry he would deliver with a sweeping wink at Henry and his four girls; but Mrs. Flower would see nothing to laugh at, for humour was not her strong point.
“You ought to be ashamed of yourself, Ralph,” she said, “before the children. I was once young and active enough to take your fancy, anyhow. Mr. Mesurier, won’t you have a little more spinach? Do; it’s fresh from the country this morning. You mustn’t mind Mr. Flower. He’s fond of his joke; and, whatever he likes to say, he’d get on pretty badly without his old Eliza.”
“Gracious, no!” Mr. Flower would retort. “Don’t flatter yourself, old girl. I’ve got my eye on two or three fine young women who’ll be glad of the job, I assure you;” but this, perhaps, proving too much for poor Mrs. Flower, whose tears were never far away, and apt to require smelling-salts, he would change his tone in an instant and say, dropping into his Derbyshire “thous,”–
“Nonsense, lass, can’t thee take a bit of a joke? Come now, come. Don’t be silly. Thou knowest well enough what thou art to me, and so do the girls. See, let’s have a drive out to Livingstone Cemetery this afternoon. Thou’rt a bit out o’ sorts. It’ll cheer thee up a bit.”
And so Mrs. Flower would recover, and harmony would be restored, and nobody would wink for a quarter of an hour. Certainly it was a quaint little mother for an Angel.
CHAPTER XXIV
AN ANCIENT THEORY OF HEAVEN
“When are you going to read me my poem?” said Angelica, one day.
“When are you going to tell me what I asked?” replied Henry.
“Whenever you read me my poem,” retorted Angelica.
“All right. When would you like to hear it?”
“Now.”
“But I haven’t got it with me to-day.”
“Can’t you remember it?”
“No, not to-day.”
“When will you bring it?”
“I’ll tell you what. Come with me to Woodside Meadows on Saturday afternoon. Your father won’t mind?”
“Oh, no; father likes you.”
“I’m glad, because I’m very fond of him.”
“Yes, he’s a dear; and he’s got far more in him than perhaps you think, under his country ways. If you could see him in the country, it would make you cry. He loves it so.”
“Yes, I could tell that by the way he talked of Derbyshire the first day we met. But you’ll come on Saturday?”
“Yes, I’ll come.”
* * * * *
Angel! Yes, it was the face of an angel; but, bright as it had seemed on that dark background, it seemed almost brighter still as it moved by Henry’s side among the green lanes. He had never known Angel till then, never known what primal ecstasy her nature was capable of. In the town, her soul was like a flame in a lamp of pearl; here in the country, it was like a star in a vase of dew. To be near trees, to touch their rough barks, to fill one’s hands with green leaves, to hear birds, to listen to running water, to look up into the sky,–oh, this was to come home!–and Angel’s joy in these things was that of some wood-spirit who you might expect any moment, like Undine, to slip out of your hands in some laughing brook, or change to a shower of blossom over your head.
“Oh, how good the country is! I wish father were here. I could eat the grass. And I just want to take the sky in my arms.” As she swept across meadow and through woodland, with the eagerness of a child, greedily hastening from room to room of some inexhaustible palace, her little tense body seemed like a transparent garment fluttering round the flying feet of her soul.
At length she flung herself down, almost breathless, at the grassy foot of a great tree.
“I suppose you think I’m mad,” she said. “And really I think I must be; for why should mere green grass and blue sky and a few birds make one so happy?”
“Why should anything make us happy?”
“Or sad?”
“But now you’re going to read my poem,” she said, presently.
“Yes; but something has to happen before I can read it,” said Henry, growing unaccountably serious; “for it is in the nature of a prophecy, or at all events of an anticipation. You have to fulfil that prophecy first.”
“It seems to me a very mysterious poem. But what have I to do?”
“I don’t know whether you can do it.”
“Well, what is it? Try me.”
“Oh, Angel, I care nothing about poems. Can’t you see how I love you? That’s all poetry will ever mean to me. Just to say over and over again, ‘I love Angel.’ Just to find new and wonderful ways of saying that–“
“Listen, Henry. I’ve loved you from the first moment I saw you that day talking to father, and I shall love you till I die.”
“Dear, dear Angel!”
“Henry!”
Then Henry’s arms enfolded Angel with wonderful love, and her fresh young lips were on his, and the world faded away like a dream within a dream.
* * * * *
“Now perhaps you can read me your poem,” said Angel, after a while; and she noticed a curious something different in her way of speaking to him, as in his way of speaking to her,–something blissfully homelike, as it were, as though they had sat like this for ever and ever, and were quite used to it, though at the same time it remained thrillingly new.
“It’s only a silly little childish rhyme,” said Henry; “some day I’ll write you far better.”
Then, coming close to Angel, he whispered,–
This is Angelica,
Fallen from heaven,
Fallen from heaven
Into my arms.
Will you go back again,
Little Angelica,
Back up to heaven,
Out of my arms!
“No,” said Angelica,
“Here is my heaven,
Here is my heaven,
Here in your arms.
“Not out of heaven,
But into my heaven,
Here have I fallen,
Here in your arms.”
CHAPTER XXV
THE LAST CONTINUED, AFTER A BRIEF INTERVAL
After the long happy silence which followed Henry’s recitation of his verses, Angel at length spoke,–
“Shall I tell _you_ something now?” she said. “I’m almost ashamed to, for I know you’ll laugh at me, and call me superstitious.”
“Go on, little child,” said Henry.
“You remember the day,” said Angel, in a hushed little impressive voice, “I first saw you in father’s office?”
Henry was able to remember it.
“Well, that was not the first time I had seen you.”
“Really, Angel! Why didn’t you tell me before? Where was it, then? In the street, or where?”
“No, it was much stranger than that,” said Angel. “Do you believe the future can be foretold to us?”
“Oh, it was in a dream, you funny Angel; was that it?” said Henry, whose rationalism at this period was the chief danger to his imagination.
“No, not a dream. Something stranger than that.”
“Oh, well, I give it up.”
“It was like this,” Angel continued; “there’s a strange old gipsy woman who lives near us–“
“Oh, I see, your hand–palmistry,” said Henry, with a touch of gentle impatience.
“Henry, dear, I said you would laugh at me. I won’t tell you now, if you’re going to take it in that spirit.”
Henry promptly locked up his reason for the moment, with apologies, and professed himself open to conviction.
“Well, mother sometimes helps this poor old woman, and, one day, when she happened to call, Alice and Edith and I were in the kitchen helping mother. ‘God bless you, lady,’ she said,–you know how they talk,–‘you’ve got a kind heart; and how are all the young ladies? It’s time, I’m thinking, they had their fortunes told.’ ‘Oh, yes,’ we all said, ‘tell us our fortunes, mother,’–we always called her mother. ‘I’ll tell you yours, my dear,’ she said, taking hold of my hand. ‘Your fortunes are too young yet, ladies,’ she said to Alice and Edith; ‘come